So I made an appointment and I went. The receptionist was lovely even though I was a tiny bit late. Which, honestly wasn't my fault. Two cab drivers cancelled on me after leaving me waiting. It's a 5-10 min drive, and I booked them more than half an hour beforehand. Reluctantly I called an Uber, and they show up fast but drive slow. He makes small talk, which starts off nice enough but then turns into a brag about weather toughness. He realised where he was taking me when we got there and kindly wished me well.
The reception had a dog. I assumed it was a "take your pet to work day", an emergency or a really relaxed place to work. Belatedly, I realised it was likely a therapy dog when after I said it was cute and she practically ran it around the desk offering me pats. Yes, dogs are fine, I just don't like touching them but I can't decline because now there are puppy eyes. Darn.
Once inside the actual meeting room I'm surprised when there's actually a chaise to lie down on. I use it, but I sit. Only sit. Otherwise self concious or fall asleep. So I sit, stare at her and squeeze my stress ball. I took my collection of proofs and documents... not that they're organised into anything useful but they're there. I had hoped to use them so I wouldn't forget anything but the lady I saw was kind and had open enough conversations that I filled the void easily enough.
She agreed that there was enough markers to indicate the likelihood that I was ADHD or Autism positive and recommended filling in some forms, getting on a waitlist, coming back for therapy. She also gave me some information that I wrote down but have already forgotten. The paperwork sits beside me as I type this, too hard to comprehend. I had to cancel my follow up appointment. Have received email from them asking if I want to stay in their books. I am paralysed by indecision and brain blanks.
